Saturday, July 12, 2008

Time...


There are moments I think, I have all the time in the world. And at other moments I think to my self, maybe the world really is flat and it is just a giant clock we are all walking around on and getting smacked in the butt by the second hand, leaving us flat on our faces. I'm not sure how to overcome that...

"Yes, time flies.
And where did it leave you?
Old too soon...smart too late.
"

Sometimes I find myself thinking "if I only knew then what I know now..." and then I remember how ridiculous that sounds because I am only talking from nearly 20 years of experience where as most people who express that statement have decades worth of experiences. So then that makes me think, what am I going to look back on in another 20 years and think the same statement about? My mind leads a very tangled web of thoughts. It is a very scary yet thrilling idea... There are so many answers that I won't learn or understand because of time...

.... When did this time thing start and how do we make it stop it?

On the other hand we all know Danielle and that with out time and a little push from those that do have it all figured out, this girl may not do anything more than travel her way through life taking still shots on her way that she might savor the moments without having to commit to keeping anything the same. As my father has told me many times, "Change is the only thing that is constant." I think I took that a little more literal than he would have liked.
My solution to this problem of feeling overwhelmed by the whole stressful time issue is to escape to Hawaii for four months with 2 of my best friends :) It sounded like a good idea to me at the time of about 4 am in the middle of last semester (aka the semester from hell) as Kamry and I were brainstorming escape plans. We thought about it and to be honest, I didn't think it would really happen but now that I am $750 and 4 new swimsuits into it , I'm now thinking there is nothing that could stop me. The Hawaii plan is slowly becoming real to me and coming into effect. I do have slightly more than some new bikinis as I do have my plane ticket and a contract and deposit down on a house. I leave to the islands on September 1st and don't return until December 22nd just in time for Christmas. I'm going with tow of the best people I know, Rachele Gardner and Kamry Maughn... the three amigo's are officially coming and Hawaii has no idea what is going to hit them :) We found a basement apartment right on the beach and a great landlord that has a cute little family we get to nanny the kids for a cut down on rent. Although that has all panned out , I still have to find a job which I heard can be very hard out there, I can use all the prayers you would like to offer !
In the mean time I am trying to figure out life's bigger plans like getting into nursing school. I have very high hopes of getting into Touro University. It is a small private university in Las Vegas. I have looked into it alot and it seems to be a wonderful school and I just have a really good feeling about it. So I hope at times like this I can trust my somewhat "broken in" instincts.
I am less than two weeks away from no longer being able to fall under the category of a teenager. And can I tell you how good that finally feels! I feel like I have been 19 for about 3 years now... I'm definitely ready for the break through.
The only downfall of me moving to Hawaii is that I am leaving Cedar City. I have now been here for almost two and a half years. Time is definitely one thing that I can say I have appreciated in this aspect.
Cedar City has definitely become home to me and I have so many people to thank for that. Its funny you know, As much as I make fun of this small town feel, I can't tell you how much I have loved being a part of it. The hardest thing to leave here is my amazing job. I know, it just a job some say but it want to me, I have learned so much from it and will miss it so much. When I had my interview in April of 2006 my adorable manager Becky said to me, "Welcome to our family!" I remember talking to my mom right afterwards and telling her how good it felt to hear someone say that in a job setting and now that I have been there for this long, I can't imagine anything better to call my job but like a family. I will truly miss Premier Pediatrics.
Ok, enough with the sappy. I am taking the next big adventure in the life of Danielle Wright and that is.... escape into the land of pineapple and the deep sea.... deep deep sea...